The irony; I sometimes wonder…If the easy and open way in which I talk about my mental health struggles,The blunt, curated insight I have into them,The clarity of my mental list of steps to tackle them… Does it ever come across as disarming or evendisingenuous,To people who live outside in the world with all the … Continue reading The Irony!
I just read on an OCD forum—Do something which requires your attention and you'll soon forget about the obsession; The hole I fell into over the last few years was that I can no longer do that; Always exercise was the miracle cure— the endorphins, adrenaline, dopamine and serotonin left my head clear and all … Continue reading The Hole I Got Into
I was watching The Silence Of The Lambs in the middle of the night,When it hit me—OCD is Hannibal Lecter; Doesn't OCD seek weaknesses to exploit?The slightest crack, the smallest opportunity,Looking to gain some control over the situation? Even once you've pushed it to the back of your mind,When you think you've got it into … Continue reading It’s Behind You!
—|—😓—|——|—😱—|——|—😭—|— Stab me with your em-dash,Stab me in the heart,Scarecrow my prose awayBurn it, burn it all on the fire, I've been jousted in the eyes,Can't see the words for tears,Flowing poetic aesthetics,Bleeding out on the floor; Operator, operator, This is an emergency,Em-dash razor-wire fortresses, are—Rationing out literatic beauty! The em dash is an incredibly … Continue reading Em-Dash— To The Heart 🖕
I want to do what I canTo help people in abuse situationsAnd raise awarenessOf the signs Because the most important signs are so obvious to some peopleAnd not to others;We need to do all we canTo get everybody on the same page; There's nothing that hurts me more…Than seeing somebody else in that kind of … Continue reading Emotional Intuition And Sensitivity
I feel the wallsclosing inagainHuman stampedesup and downthe hallwayDisrupting me fromthe final outletThe endless universeof writing and creativityThe laststrandof proactive hopeSaving me, fromthe abyssal void of empty days without a planFor this activeproactiverestless mindThat is the truest hellThere is nothing l o n g e rthane m p t y timeWith no beginningand no e … Continue reading Closing In Again
Hi RobinI notified them that I had discussed it with our tenancy relations officer who confirmed they’d need to have served a s.8 as you are protected from The Protection from Eviction Act 1977. Otherwise this is harassment or an illegal eviction.I will do a referral to our tenancy relations officer and request she contacts … Continue reading Bingo
It was funny how even now, not much had changed;Funny, terrifying, surreal,It would be hard to sum it up in words,Complex emotions we'd never expected to feel;All the same, at some fundamental level we'd remained blissfully, wilfully unaware,These final few months; As the sky began to blot out,The darkening, growing shadow falling across the upper … Continue reading No More Words
Whenever I exercise now,There's an added stress on my heart,Because of the OCD which stopped me from exercising and getting any benefit from it; It's not so bad now, so I'm able to enjoy it again,But there's still this added strain from keeping it at bay;That extra stress then triggers hypochondria OCD,Which tells me to … Continue reading A Tale Of OCDs
Why I always come back to you No matter what you do to me; Abusive narc OCD 😐 🌪️