Erasure Of Disgust

Sometimes, when I see something so disgusting,I can't stop bringing it back to mind,Nor do anything else,Until I've found the 'right' way to reconcile this with the world; In fact, now I remember writing about this on here before;Anyway, there are times in survival mode I am able to numb myself to such things,Other times …

Hell

Letting agentAnd landlordIn and outIn and outAll dayEvery weekday Fire alarmOn and offOn and offEvery two minutesFor no reason at all(The alarms are all connected so the one in my room goes off, too, and it's the only sound which cuts right through all of the hearing protection in the world) Scared to leave my …

Dare To Hope

Daringtohope… Whilsttryingnot to; Could itreallyhappen…this time? I've collected 8 documents in support of my need for my own place— from charities who've helped me, a GP, a community mental health nurse and a psychiatrist (my autism and OCD diagnosis reports). It is in the council's hands now, as they have done another 'homelessness risk assessment' …

Ding Dong

The infestation of housemates is being rooted out,All with an eviction deadline of 4th October, The stampiest housemate (replacement zombie) and partner are gone,At last,Carrying out chests in the middle of the night… The second most stampy housemate (and the most arrogant and toxic),Has also left two weekends before,Just one remains (the one above me),Only …

A Crying Shame

I'm taking a risk—The floor could absolutely quake at any moment,My entire world would shake,Through the seat I'm sitting on,Through my feet on the floor,Through the solid desk my hands and arms are resting on,The computer screen I'm looking at could sway back and forth,The microphone arm could shake,My plants could quiver as the shock …

A Moon’s Perspective

The evicted moon had rendezvoused with a pair of co-orbiting gas giants,An unlikely permutation in the cosmic dance; Don't you worry, they said,Behind you lies chaos and entropy,Ahead lies…well, yet more chaos,But in amongst it lie regions of relative order,Pockets of space, sanity; A hyperbolic trajectory is no state for a planet or a moon—Those …

Breadcrumbs

But it was the foreboding red light of a nearby flaring sun,Giving temporary life and respite to a darkened, dormant world; Like the temperamental star which birthed it,The new ecosystem could not last, as,Brightening over a short time-scale before gradually dimming,The ageing sun exploded, rendering the home system permanently hostile; Its scarred facefreshly irradiated,The wandering …

I will not rise to it yet still I…

They've gone rogue, out of control, It's now a witch hunt but I'm not a witch, Actually threatening me with eviction and I still don't know what I've done to deserve it; What obstacles are still to come in this story? Tomorrow…I phone Launchpad, and go to the drop-in on Friday, They're the people I …

Not A Leg To Stand On

Not a leg to stand on,Not a leg to stand on, I found a direct council phone number—Super helpful, nice relaxed lady,Suitably astonished at the letting agent's antics; They will remind the letting agent of the reasons they may request to do an inspection,And said it would be ok if I started paying £50 for …

More External Stresses

Of course, as one stress is removed, another is introduced. I'm here just trying to deal with the OCD and maintain my mood and sanity, but now feel like I'm on the back foot again after an incident which just happened. I'll just paste an email I sent to the council immediately after: Hi, The …