Number 456

Prisoners who complete the game,Will progress to the next round,All others will be eliminated, The prize…eternal fulfilment and completion,No more mind games,All your worries will be soothed; Why so serious?One would think, given the high stakes involved,That I'd volunteered myself for squid games,And that's exactly what I've done, Oh, fuck. Slap me again. πŸŒͺ

OCD, Difficulty And Capabilities

OCD without support is the hardest thing in the world,Not that OCD with support is necessarily easy (I imagine), But OCD without support is like having your legs blown off,And not being given prosthetics or physiotherapy; It's the most difficult thing I've ever experienced,Especially because my current circumstances encourage relapses and loss of hard-won progress. … Continue reading OCD, Difficulty And Capabilities

Just In Case OCD

Hmmm, Just In Case OCD,Seems like it should be a type, Similar to Just Right OCD,But to me it's even more destructive,Because at least Just Right refers to something relatively tangible, in my caseβ€” Symmetry of blinking between left eye and right,Aligning some object perfectly in relation to another,Maintaining my own body's yaw angle with … Continue reading Just In Case OCD

Neighbour From Hell

Like the supermarket trolleys lining the ditches of slip roads into concrete junglesOr Audis and BMWs scattered down mountainsides of the Scottish HighlandsKarma for the presumptuousness of personal satisfactionAnd over-confidence in oneself All roads lead to pain and ruinAnd a flat tyre along the wayEven if you're driving a ten-year-old SkodaLiving a perfect, modest moral … Continue reading Neighbour From Hell


I love the way my hair frames my vision, when I wake up,Draping down like willow leaves,My own private nursery of restoration and rejuvenation, Or looking across a lake at sunset,With tree branches framing the view, Or just the satisfying feeling ofbeing fully in character, remembering past resiliences,A monster rising from its tomb,Embodying the undead … Continue reading Undeaded

Hell In OCD

I've had a particular OCD compulsion which has been consuming me all year,Taking up several hours or more of each day,It's so incredibly intrusive and pernicious,To do with readiness, not being agitated by a physical discomfort, I repeat the compulsion which solves an imaginary problem, The point is that more than any other compulsion it's … Continue reading Hell In OCD