I Thought There Was A Body…

I thought there was a body in the room above me,Any day now…The juices will come on drippin' down, I thought there was a body in the room above me,The windows are open,Since early last June, I thought there was a body in the room above me,But then I heard tremendous banging and stomping,As the …

Why Detaching From Somatic Obsessions Is So Damned Difficult

How to forget a damned somatic obsession?A conscious awareness and control of blinking?Of breathing?Or other internally-defined and incessantly-noticed body states? The longer you can take your focus away from it,And onto something else,The more chance you have of forgetting it, BUT,Why is it so hard?Even for me, it's impossible to reconcile having been caught up …

Into The Dust

I'm sad to say it, but…They weren't even missed,So I rented out their rooms,On ol' AirBnB, Their bones were later discovered,Hiding in plain sight,Mixed into the dirt they left,Beneath our feet, Their bones were later discovered,Hiding in plain sight,Ground up into the dust,Where they belonged. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0TX7R-2VTBE&ab_channel=M83 🌪

Dayum, Dayum, Dayum

Dayum,I lost so much, didn't I?Relative to the start of the year, With all of the stresses of the housing environment,No control over being able to do the daily tasks I needed to,Losing my ability to write how I wanted to,Losing my ability to want to write or to daydream,—All of this I was fully …

Mental Health Spaces

Well…I've finished my project,Of becoming self-sufficient,—I no longer need anything from the house,Except resupplies of water; Once every few days, I undertake a lonely voyage,Walking the long path through wastelands, aghast,(to the kitchen/bathroom),Carrying my empty jugs; The mental health benefits, so far,Have been enormous!I no longer care about the state of the house,—It's none of …

The Four-Headed Monster

It's got foouur heads!Why has it got four heads!!? 😫Grandad!? I'm scared! It's the four-headed monster…Of Devil's Homestead! The wat? Legend has it that four monsters,(Each representing one of the fundamental terrors of humankind),Merged into one ultimately hideous, abominable creature,But,Nobody has ever seen it,And lived to tell the tale… Oh my shit— Yes,Oh my fucking …

God Damnit

You've derailed my day,And now I'm going to fucking pay, It wasn't supposed to start this way,Now everything is feeling mehh! You've derailed my day,And now I'm going to fucking pay, But I am going to restart today.Because eventually, everything will be OK. (And you will be most unequivocally ensconced in hell 😁). 🌪

Police Or Not?

Serious question—I have a housemate who's trying to break into my room,Do I phone the police? He's been knocking on my window and door for the last hour,And he keeps trying the door handle even though it's obviously locked, Usually, he's locked out of the house,So I have no idea why he's knocking on my …

Existence

I am pure existence,Merely slogging through an interstitionary phase,Extended and extended, as it's been,Through combinations of circumstances, Antidepressants help to keep me going,Stop me from going crazy,And allow me to do at least some things,Such as this,But it's a surreal time; The dosage will need increasing again,Once this one loses effectiveness,Like a life-jacket with a …

Everyone’s A Winner!

Ladies and gentlemen,Boys and girls…Monsters,And,Zombies! Okay—There are zero of those in the first two categories present here…We have only… monsters,And,Zombiess!!! What do we have…? … Well!?Come on! M–m–m-m… Spit it out, spit it out!We haven't got all day,We've around ten minutes, in fact,Before my next appointment!What are we…?? M-m-monsters! And…? Z-z-z-z-zombies! Yes!And what happens to …