Like when you find a long-neglected piece of clothing in the back of the wardrobe,And realise that actually it's not so bad at all, It is something you can enjoy again,A matter of perspective,And it's a happy reunion, an added bonus,Best of all it costs nothing. πͺ
Maybe I Could Write Something
I'm dying without writing,OCD is as bad as it's been,My days have lost their beginnings of meaning,I can't even remember what I was saying;(Struggling to begin anything); But maybe if I start small,And slowly build it up,I'm sure that I can adapt again,And manage to write something. πͺ
Escape Is Possible
We are nearly there,And she's being so brave and strong,Finding strength beyond her own expectation; The plan has been ethereal,Shifting, changing, going in and out of focus,Butβ¦the one constant remainsβHer determination to leave; She's digging really deep as obstacles arise,As the situation becomes more urgent,But she has strength to match,It's an honour to witness. πͺ
Verdict
As computing power increased across the decades with the marching miniaturisation of technology,As bandwidth widened and global sharing of digital information became near-instantaneous,As public surveillance technology became increasingly intrusive, comprehensive and widespread,As artificial intelligence and automated data analysis became ever-more generalised and sophisticated,Andβ¦As society's attitudes concerning automation and privacy tended more and more towards compliance, … Continue reading Verdict
What’s The Worst That Could Happen? π€
My heart's fine,My health is fine,And after allβ¦What's the worst that could happen? I could drop dead tomorrow,Or even now,And would that be so bad? I wouldn't have to bear the aftermath,It would probably be quick and painless,And it would immediately end the last few years of struggle; Anxiety's felt in the heart,So anxiety about … Continue reading What’s The Worst That Could Happen? π€
House Plants Tour!
Last August I acquired my first plantβ a snake plantβ when my room had little light due to having the curtains closed for privacy in my ground-floor room. I've since been slowly acquiring grow lights and more plants, (as well as a bright sunlight lamp for my mood), and acquiring the knowledge needed to look … Continue reading House Plants Tour!
The Great Loneliness
I'm depressed,Lonely,Anxious,Too restless to sit on my bed and write anything,Because I feel trapped,Claustrophobic,Too hot,TOO HOT!!It makes me want to burst out, And there's a lot to be said for body postureβI've found sitting on a stool to be very freeing, calming, and positivity-inducing;The upright, forwards-facing, upwards and onwards-looking perspective really helps to make use … Continue reading The Great Loneliness
Come On
For the last few weeks my housemate has been having friends round (despite the lockdown restrictions meaning no indoor meetings!) and cramming into the living room next door to my room to work out together. The living room is a connecting room between the rest of the house and the kitchen/bathroom. There are 3 other … Continue reading Come On
I Almost Died :|
I was already planning to go out to Tesco on the scooter in the nice cold fresh air, but the situation with the housemate had made me feel paralysed, balancing between despair and total rage. My friend was able to talk to me for 10 minutes, and encouraged me to gain the strength to get … Continue reading I Almost Died π
Facing Environmental Struggles
My housemate turned the living room into a gym, and he's having friends over all the time to use it with him. I just went to ask him to stop dropping the weights (after asking him yesterday) and he was in there with 2 friends today with the door closed. The living room is a … Continue reading Facing Environmental Struggles